Up and down, hot and cold , Rainy and sunny has me a dizzy, ringing nightmare. I can't imagine what i would be like if i wasn't on the SERC medication I think I would be a mess. With Halloween and candy all over the place which is a no-no for MD but I can't help putting my hand in the bowl of M&M jar. But after about 100 of them(I have no will power damn it) I start to feel the results of them in my head and my body becomes a dizzy mess. All of this the weather and candy all of this brings me down to that dark place. I have been home for days and feel like not even like I care to leave. I haven't slept in days the roaring in my ears keeps me awake at night and the pressure in my head feels like 2 boards are being pressed with my head between them and I just know one day my head is going to pop off..
The SERC has been a miracle this I praise God for everyday. I do have to say my vertigo is 90% better and my attacks are so much less. But my uncontrollable tinnitus is starting to wear me down. I feel extreme fatigue and exhaustion all the time. I can't concentrate and I can't remember anything and sometimes I feel disoriented (maybe because of all the hearing problems) all of this I sum up being that I AM MENTALLY TERRIFIED!
Right now with the weather I have muscle and joint pain and malaise due to the atmospheric pressure changes. all of this I am experiencing high anxiety and I get scared that I am going to be someplace by myself and that I will have an attack. I think that is why I am staying home and don't want to go anywhere. This isn't me, this isn't who I am .. where did I go?
