When things happen in my life I feel its God telling me to change, to make different choices in my life because what I am doing isn't working! and to see.. what happens if things get better. wow I have to say this was if I still believe that this was a big WAKE UP CALL from God. MD Hello yes I am listening and after all this anger I think my number one trigger is the STRESS in my life . I have to do something for all the Stress in my life and take the time to Pray in my moments of dizzy fits. Even just a bit of arguing with anyone or my kids increases ear pressure and I feel dizzy and sick. Its frustrating that MD is so variable . I think this is why I have such bad anxiety episodes. I am my own person: I have always been very prideful of who I am and no matter what is going on in my life. I have been trying to listen and see the lessons that God is trying to teach me even through this curse madness that MD give you. I have started the new medication Serc and feel that only taking this medication for going on two weeks now I think I can feel something working inside me. I am feeling less heavy headed, fog headed and drunken dizzy at times. The ringing in my ears is the same still very loud and still very jet like but some reason I have some energy which its been such a long time for that.. Its hard to tell if anything is working I mean about one hour after you take this medicine one major side effect nausea yep I am only two weeks into this medicine and I am not sure how much longer I can take retching my lungs out with absolutely no idea of how to make it stop nothing makes it stop really.. Nausea medicine sure whatever still happens and after you take that you have to sleep the only good things I see about all of this is the other major side effect weight loss . yeah wonder why hello because you can't keep anything down after you eat with this medication and I take it three times a day . But I have to see the positive in something that is so painful .. and I refuse give up ! I believe that is will make a difference and then talk myself into it. I think that is the mind over matter theory my dad would be so proud.
Severe Bilateral Meniers ... lets just say SBMD , or BMD or MD whatever .. its fucken madness its compulsive nausea, the constant dizziness, the balance issue, the roaring ringing in my ears, hyperacusis, hearing distortions is so far all that is going on I can't think that there is much more that I can take of this .. but all of these things are horrendous to live with. Most days I feel I live life in as a drunk person that just got hit by a car . But some days there are good days. And on those days I want to go out and do everything .. See everyone and just enjoy everything we take for granted everyday .. Think about it ..driving , riding a bike, seeing a movie, going to lunch with friends and family, playing with my kids ...and so much more ... I pray that on my good days that I am given the chances to do all those things and that they don't pass me by ..
Be Thankful to God for all the blessings he has granted me. Thank you for my life for the breath I can take for such a blessed life. No Matter what my sufferings are I have so much to be thankful for .
