Vincent Van Gogh, an Artistic briilliance and supposed madness had made him a focus of popular fascination. This 19th Century Dutch Painter suffered not from epilipsy or in sanity but from Meniers disease. Van Gogn was sent to the asylum because of "Fit's of madness" as he called them. If only Van Gogn lived today I have to wonder what would have been done for him.
Today I have started a new Drug its called Serc. It will take a few weeks to see if it will work in my blood system . So this is Day 1. three times a day ..
Today terrible headachs with a feeling that I am going to pass out the room is spinning around and bussing in my ears. I have taken my pills and feel heavily dopped up . I hate feeling this way and the only things to do is to just sleep it off. Depression is getting teh better of me again and I feel like isolating myself back into that dark place where its quite . I know that God has a place for me and its much better plan than my own. Sometimes it seems that its hard for me to give up that control and let God take over this for me. God I need him to step in and I give up. I need to trust in God I need to lean on my faith. I need him to get me through this hard times and also to keep me grounded when thingss are going not well. Today things aren't going well.. I can't keep my head straight with the weather and so I am taking my meds and closing my eyes.. Van Gogn was known as the"Mad Artist" well I know how he felt
