I know its fall here in Kansas when in the morning the air is crisp and you can see just a bit of your breath. But most of all I know Fall is here when the days are bright with light and the late summer storms have passed and I for just a moment have had some really awesome days. I have always loved the seasons each one that comes and goes they take so long and we are always ready and waiting in excitement almost to see the next one come. But I like alot of my friends out there I am sure have always been to busy to see the awe in the seasons. Fall has come to where I live and the days have been just wonderful and I have taken full advantage of them because I don't feel so out of it so dizzy and my world for a moment has stopped spinning so fast and its passed me by. Its been a month since I have been on SERC for my MD and I have seen some great results. Just this past week I have noticed that I am not so heavy headed and I am not slurring my words like I have been. I seem to be keeping a conversation longer periods of time and with this weather my bed has only been slept in at night. I have 4 more week to go on SERC until I see the specialist at KU but for now I feel that its been working for me more than anything else that I have been put on. And I will say this much it doesn't put me out it sorta gives me a funny energized feeling like the blood it pumping through my body really fast which is what it is to do. Granted I have had bad days but they don't seem to be lasting as long only about 5 or 10 hours and I seem to be able to make it through without being totally drugged up and put out of my misery. Since I have stopped and slowed down and started to enjoy and see the beauty in every minute I have when I feel good (and good might be just standing up and not feeling like I was at the bar all night for to long) I have peace in my heart and content in my life and I am grateful for the small moments in my life. I feel like it is a vital necessity that I line up my thoughts with God's thoughts. I don't ever give up and I pray and yell at him for help if I have to. But little by little I feel like I am changing and the more I change the more my life will change for the better. I know there is a plan for me its a hard one to understand.. But today LORD again even thought I woke up with ringing in my ears so loud like a jet plane at least the say is bright and I am up ..
